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In just a few short months I start nursing school. I am excited and petrified at the same time. And I can't remember the last time I agonized so much over a decision. This is one that for a season will cost me time and money - time away from my family and money we could use to adopt. That's all I keep thinking about is that this second degree will cost the same as adopting a child. I need to think long term and beyond the next year and a half, but it's been really hard not to lately. Friends that recently adopted their daughter from Niger told of their daughter's best friend at the orphanage whom we met and loved on while we were there in September. The (now fired) orphanage director was hardly feeding the children for the last several months and when they saw her a few weeks ago she had lost about 20 lbs. She only weighed 50 to begin with. Will she even survive? It is tugging at my heart so much, and it makes me so sad.

So, I pray that God would show me clearly that I really did hear from Him back in September when we were with the medical mission team and that I am supposed to go back to school. For years nursing has been in my heart. There are so many reasons not to go but so many reasons to keep walking it out. So, I will keep walking it out and trusting that God will show me clearly if I shouldn't go. He doesn't trick us or try to make it difficult for us to know what He has for our lives. If I can ignore all of the opinions and fears that are not of God, I know I will hear more clearly. For you praying people, thank you for your prayers. And please join us in praying continually for those sweet orphans that are just as worthy of life as we are, and if you feel led to do something, do it. We are called to take care of orphans and widows in whatever ways we can.